Moderator: Welcome Ladies and Gentlemen to another talk with
Beth and Father. Good to have you both as always.
Beth and Father: Thank you, good to be here.
Moderator: Beth, I understand you are currently experiencing
an illness that took the lives of many women. You are being treated for it as
we speak. It is the subject of our talk today. Please share.
Beth: Thank you, Moderator. I was diagnosed with ovarian
cancer on April 24th. Surgery has taken place on May 1st.
Chemotherapy began a month later. It all started on March 30th when
my stomach became bloated and nothing helped to relieve it. My abdomen became distended
and that is when I went to see several doctors, done many tests to come to that
conclusion.
Moderator: Wow. Everything took place in such a short time.
How did you feel all throughout this ordeal?
Beth: It was an emotional roller coaster. I cried a lot. I
laughed a lot. I daydreamed a lot. I struggled with my will to live. I had pity
parties. I celebrated life in all of its shapes and sizes. I sometimes pretended
to be well for the sake of those around me. Other times, I was well without pretension. I
regretted a lot of things. I regretted time wasted. I was thankful for
everything and anything especially the hard times. I tried to figure out what I
did wrong. I repented of anything and everything even things I’ve never done just
to cover all of the bases. I asked Father many, many questions and not getting
answers fast enough. I asked Him, “Why me?”
Moderator: Yes, why you?
Beth (smiling): I don’t know. Some tell me that I am strong
and able to handle it. But the true source of my strength is Jesus Christ.
Others tell me that Father is seeking to bless me. Amen, whether I live or die,
I am His. I think He wants to be glorified through all of His children, not
just me. All will be revealed in His time.
Moderator: How did you overcome the emotional turmoil?
Beth: I didn’t. I am
suspecting it will be a part of my life for now. I liken it to an unhealed
wound. It takes time. It will get better.
Moderator: Thank you. Please go on.
Beth: During all of this time, by the grace of Father and
the prayers of my brothers and sisters, He would give me words from the Bible
to strengthen me.
Moderator: What is the very first verse He gave you?
Beth: Romans 8:28, “And we know that in all things God works
for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His
purpose.” Although, He did not cause this illness, He allowed it. Since He
allowed it and He makes no mistakes, I had to learn to trust Him and thank Him
for this illness. I also have to praise Him for He is still in control and He
does not change no matter how much I change.
Moderator: And the journey continues?
Beth: Yes, indeed.
Moderator: Thank you Beth and I wish you the best. As
always, Father, it is a pleasure and a privilege to hear from you.
Father: Thank you, Moderator. It pleases my heart to talk
with one of my children. I have a plan for each of my children that fit
perfectly. My plans are good as everything I made is good. These plans are to
prosper you and not to destroy you. The enemy wants to destroy you because he
hates everything I love. Then he tries to convince you that I am to blame for
your misfortunes and that I do not care about you. I allow misfortunes in your
lives for you to realize many things. This world is temporal. There is life
after the transition that many call death. Unhealthy attachments to material things
hinder your progress. There are many important things to focus on. Increase
your heavenly bank account and not your earthly bank account which can disappear
in a moment. I care about you. I care about your spirit, heart, soul, and life.
You are very precious to me. If you want my involvement in your life, you have
to invite me. I will not force myself on anyone. If you want answers, ask me. I
will respond in due time. If you want my will for your life, trust me. I want a
relationship with you and not just dutiful service. Come close to me and I’ll
come closer to you. Do you feel unable to come closer? Ask me to draw you
closer to me. I love that kind of request because I love you. Thank you,
Moderator, for inviting me here.
Moderator: You are welcome here anytime, Father. As long as we are alive, we experience different
seasons. Some seasons are dark and gloomy. Some are bright and beautiful. Some
are a mixture of the two. But the Son will always shine. Until next time, stay
blessed.
